This I know for sure

I know what I see
Often too much to believe
Don't ever trust how I feel anymore
Need a blueprint
Need a hand
I always.....need....
I know it all seems insane
When looking in from outside of the bubble
Don't feel like explaining anymore
Need sanity
Need something that's only mine
I don't want to....always..need...
I know it's only a matter of time
Life always cycles through
Don't want to pretend it doesn't
Need credibility
Need something that's concrete
I'm forever needing...