storm

The drops violently hit the surface of the lake.
"She has man hands," I say. You look away smirking.
Your lack of reaction is annoying.
Electric goes out for 30 seconds.......and we wait.
I'm bored.
What were we talking about again?
It all blurs together anymore.

Naturally

Crunching green
beneath my heels,
reminded me once more
of old feelings.
Shadows try
but can't reappear.
Winds they blow
but I'll remain here.
Sturdy trees see damage,
yet stand stronger for it.
Like that smoke grey boulder,
I stay here,
firmly planted
here in the fertile ground.

Dolly

Purple doll,
your face remains the same.
I pull your hair
and you won't cry.
I pull your arm off
and you don't die.
Purple doll,
you're not fun anymore.
I threw you out
only to find you on my bed.

selfish babble

I know what I do.
I know who I hurt,
and who I save.
Consciously I reach out now,
whether you want me to or not.
I know what I have done,
I can't pretend to be blind anymore.
I see the beginning
and I'm dying to write your story.
I see my own end
and am comfortable with that.
Always looking for a destination,
I never took in the scenery.
Always looking for perfection,
I could never tell what you saw in me.

Blindside

Yes, I saw you there.
Selfishly I stared past you
at my reflection in the mirror.
I wanted change,
To change you,
to change myself,
into something worth showing.
I was the same as always,
nothing to be proud of.
I didn't care,
I didn't apologize.
I deserved nothing
and that's all I saw.
Through this fog,
huge hands offered a gift.
So afraid I now open my hands,
hoping I'm worthy of receiving.