Midnight

Waiting to run away, the day just seems to keep getting longer and longer. I count hours as if they were pennies, never ending up with what I hope for. I have waited so long for you to come here. Planning. Wishing. Preparing myself. It never is what I expect, but you never were. Thank goodness this time it was so much more. You are more than I could've imagined, and I am so very thankful.

Groundbreaking

I never let anyone in anymore, but I took a chance. I let you see my world for all that it was, in all it's complexity. I let you see the damage from the storm and the reconstruction efforts. And for what? To be let down yet again by your landslides and inconsistancy. So what now? Let me break it down for you. You are cut off darling. Cut off from any of my reconstruction efforts. Cut off from mapping out any future blueprints. You won't be invited to the ribbon cutting ceremony, nor will there be a wreath on the wall in your honor. For you there is a spot in the back of the crowd where maybe, just maybe if you sit on your friend's shoulders you may be able to catch a glimpse of me as I give my official opening speech. That's if you can even hear it.

My fav things

Thinkin lines on Henry
Girls with no drama
Rockband 2's gameplay
Lunches with Momma
My sexy chocolate man
Gritty fast punk rock
Anything sparkly and pink
Sprite kept in stock
Writing for me
When one person likes it
Reading some manga
My friends who won't quit
Kids that are funny
Cats that don't scratch
Time in bed sleeping
A good UFC match

Once upon a time I expected you to be what you say you were. When you weren't, I made excuses and tried to still hold you way up. If ignorance is bliss, you had me in heaven. That was until the snap. The bolt of lightening entered though the window and reminded me of why I had ran from all of those storms. I remembered nearly drowning only to claw my way back up the bank in the nick of time. I should've been angry. I should've felt betrayed and withdrawn.....but I didn't. I was so relieved to have my liferaft this time around. Once upon a time I saved myself no thanks to you.

Closing curtain

Ten steps backward
to realize which way to go
Running faster away
from a scene all too familiar
You really do believe
the lines that you sling
Character profile
such an ugly painting
Hiding leaves you open
to all of these multiple arrows
I refuse to block you
from what you invite