smeary handprints

I knew you yesterday,
when you took challenge with delight.
We ran together
into the fight.
Bloodied and beaten
we'd snicker and smile,
dust ourselves off..
haven't been there in awhile.
Honesty comes,
first time you give up...
truth's always there
at the bottom of the cup.

Clover

Finding a pulse
on something in me
Trying to find
what I useta see
But I don't have you there
like you used to be
You're not meaning what
you once did to me
Times have changed
and I blame myself
Things were uttered,
situations I couldn't help
Don't even want to
go where we were before
Not sure sure you fit in
to what I have in store

blind faith buys you some

Never claimed
to be good at this
Blind faith
is hard to cling to
Staying positive
does make life more attractive
Seeing daily things
I passed before in haste
I want a replay
so much more I could achieve

Sidesteps and Stumbles

He says I fight what I'm not
so much I sidestep what I am.
Fighting the tides,
I see a lot of myself there.
Why do I fight everything
that really doesn't deserve a thought?
Sitting back now.
I will let happiness seek me.

A Gabba Tale

I dance for you,
full effort.
You think I'm a jackass.
I commit.
I sweat.
The Aquabats make me winded.
I jump.
You stare.
I wiggle.
You look appalled.

Thumbtacks and Fingernails

Telling you things I shouldn't have to,
I am amused.
You wanted to see a different girl
yet you bore of this version.
I am amused.
Your indecisiveness is killing you
but it won't take me too.

Fuzzy blur
of what not to repeat.
Newness....
are you ready?
Can you be better?
Smarter?
Care less?
Do you care at all?
Ready to present the right face,
a real face.
No takebacks.
No excuses.
No apologies.

Black and White

Pictures of old school pinups and Batman
are visuals of the day.
Entranced by the ones of roads
that stretch to the unknown.
The girl this one looks concerned,
wondering if that is fake or real.
So hard to tell.
She makes me hear Mazzy Star
and hate myself a little.
Analyzing your picture is so much easier.
I need more stills in my life.
Take it in and throw it away.
Borrowed time if you will.

Sugar

Your mouth tastes sweet.
Don't get to comfortable here.
I'm merely a vacation home,
a pleasant stop....
a breath away from chaos
Can't become a real girl,
one complete.....
crystal clear vision of what you need.
Visit and remember me fondly,
for the longer you stay
the worse I become.
Candy coated moments
are better in small doses.

Creeper

Followin you once more,
you always go the same way.
So oblivious as you check your phone
nearly walkin into people coming you way.
You don't see me
and that's fine.
You never do.
I brought my cuffs this time.
You're gonna notice me today.