old friend

Familiar face
How many years has it been?
So much we have seen together

Lately

I see someone different
when I watch you now.
Maybe you were always this person.
Maybe I was blind to the good
and only saw the frustration.
My new eyes have made me
fall more deeply in love.
I'm loving the safe peace that we have
in this bubble we have built.
Compromise was not my thing
but I can learn.
Loving you fully
has become my new occupation.

Stained

Settling down
I remember my way.
I want to nest.
I want to be here.
Racing mind
always leads the chase.
Chase me.
Will you?
Am I worth it?
After all the mistakes?
After all the hateful remarks?
Can I renew what we have?
Or is your view of me stained?
I'm not that girl.
I wonder if I ever was.

basement cell

The basement has kept me safe.
Cold and quiet,
it has it's charm.
I acted as if you locked the door
but I honestly never checked.
A crack of light introduced itself,
catching my interest for a second.
It wooed me,
inviting me into it's arms.
I crawled out of the darkness
to see you standing there
smiling with arms open,
warm and delicious.
I rubbed my eyes
and we walked into the ocean.

Voyage

Lately been wanting
just to explore.
Been seeing I'm meant for
oh so much more!
Held myself back
for way too long.
So afraid to mess up,
too afraid to be wrong.
What's the worst that can happen?
I get back up?
No more will I wonder,
I'll make my own luck!
You taught me these lessons,
no one else could.
You found the bravery
that alone I never could.

Shadow Station

Thirty years waiting at bus stations,
spent anticipating that you would stop me and hold me back.
You never showed,
yet still I waited.
Why?
I'm getting on this bus now.
We are pulling away.

De Rossi

Blond tendrils hang loosely.
She sees a monster.
Broken beauty trapped in barbwire.
Why remain unseen,
while so many love to gaze?

self made

Guilty conscious
tie it up.
Learned early on
to make my own luck.
I swam, didn't drown
as you doubletake.
Don't need you to clean
the messes I make.
I'm here cause of me
and will continue to be,
more than you credit
or admit that you see.

verses

Several red roses
repeat what you say.
A thousand white dresses
can't take that away.
Middrift for the season,
to see what has grown.
Finally seeing
what I should've known.

beautiful one

Unexpected child
what have you got
Hoping you can be
all that I'm not
We dodge bullets,
kneel to block bombs
All I ever wanted
was to just be your mom