I've never met her

Nightmares made me lonely
So I made several calls
You adored me in the spring
Sent me wandering in the fall
The cigarettes burnt out
Wine bottles fill with dust
Torn like tissues
Scatter all our bond and trust
If I act like I don't know you
It's purely just for me
If I refuse the eye contact
Maybe you won't see

spiderwebs

I tangle them
They are ok with it
Hand over their thoughts
Dump out dreams on the table
Allow me to coax out demons
Yes, I tangle them
But they're much happier caught
When free they fret
Panic if you will
No one else rocks their demons
I tangle them
So their soul can get some rest finally
So they can really show themselves
To be completely appreciated
To be insanely loved
I tangle them to free myself

It's all just part of being here

Crickets still judge
I'm used to it
Sing your song
It's just background noise

Crow

My black soul
Copy and paste
Tragic rerun
More life to waste
Open window
Can't stay here
You'll surely die
With me my dear

treatments

Underneath
Looking to the side
Everything I wanted
Huge green eyes couldn't hide
Make me whole again
Remove doubt and waste
Take me to the other side
At least a little taste

neighbors

Angry voices
I heard them fight
This morning
All last night
Seems like it
Is all silly drama
Still talking to
His baby's momma
They fight and drink
Puke this morning
They make up
Without any warning
Guess they love
Hard as they do
Stick together
Love fights through

let's never be them

Watch them
That elderly couple to our right
Barlights mask the sadness
Millie tries to crack a a joke
Half of her effort is returned
Hank gazes to the right
He's so bitter now
The youth they stole haunts him
The cute girl sitting at the bar looks away
He's fixated on the tattoo on her ankle
Bartender tries to put her at ease with a smile
Now Hank's just a creeper
It didn't have to be like this
He married Millie young to save her
Now she's slowly killing him
They go through the motions
Happy faces for the audience
But his eyes are so sad
Inside there's a countdown to the end

See..like rhm

Could tell a colorful story
About timing and deep sadness
So many gnawing thoughts
Easily I could get lost
You'd never send a search party
Real talk
Understandable
Need to redirect
Solo..I wander into the wild

Real

Dug my heels in
This corset you tied
Wrote and drew
Silently died
Heard you whisper
It's alright
I know I am
Going to be with you tonight
Your favorite drink
As you kiss my hand
We sing along
To our favorite band
You tuck me in
Your lips are hot
It's like it always is
Scared I'm not

cherry blossoms n stuff

We sat in broken tea cups
When we visited Japan
You pick a flower for me
Gently put it in my hair
I still blush at your smile
Your kisses make me shy
Even though we are old now
This was my plan of how I'd die

Me too

I know her
We talk quite a bit
We know the mess
Both know the solution
Let's just sit back and watch
Throw a match on this bonfire
The flames are pretty
Please drink and celebrate
Sing loud of tomorrow's promises

G taught me..c'mon..

Chase me
No one is here
We can whisper to the dead
Slowly disappear
I hide
I know you'll come
Hold my breath
Our twisted fun

I know I'm not the favorite

Walk these wet streets with me
As I grow so shy
Reassure me please
This will fix itself before I die
Giggle in dark alleys
Let's hope for the best
I know I am difficult
But this love just never rests