Desert Mirage

Black and white horse
You allow me to ride
I tell you to go
But you remain by my side
Though my fear is obvious
You nuzzle my face
I've left to allow your freedom
Yet you still chase
I don't have your carrot
But you have my heart
Never sure where to lead you
But I'm willing to start

Day we drowned

Today's the day that we drowned
I'm so sorry
Seems the harder I swam to you
The stronger the tide always pulled you away
Eventually I couldn't see you anymore
I had to just wave goodbye and go under

Holding one's breath

The line went dead
I sighed in relief
The trouble I found
Was beyond belief
The cards called you out
I refused to see
This won't end
The way it should be
Poisoned kisses
Hurt more everyday
The closer I get
You grow further away

Jogger

Running in pace
Gotta keep moving
As to not get stuck
Kicking in doors
Only to find empty rooms
Or people open handed
Must keep running
Just so tired
Of chasing shadows
Wait for me
I need to know
Everything that you know
I need to know
Every piece
Right now

5

I tried to securely fasten
the sheets of concrete to his feet.
Not to know if it dead ends,
but to be able to follow along.
He smiled.
He was patient.
Though his clothes were in the tub,
"It's just one day," he said.
"It's not always."
I believed him.
We settled on griptape instead.
He could still stand.
My music was still too loud.

Just a letter

I'll write you a love letter
Please don't find it dumb
Of all the fires we've ran through
And who we've become
I'll write you a love letter
So that you understand
I'm at my happiest
When we're hand and hand
I'll write you a love letter
Just hope that you know
I appreciate your devotion
And allowing me grow
I'll write you a love letter
From the first word you'll know
I've gathered my strength
And am refusing to go

Natalie's Soapbox

I know....

I know I'm fidgety

Flighty

Hard to follow

Changeable

Too much

Too little

Unpredictable

I know this though..

I know I'm fun

Creative

Hilarious

Loving

Supportive

Amazing

Unforgettable

Worth every second

I don't want to be her...

Never will be...

You can actually trust me

That's the difference

I'm trusting

You'll empty your back pocket

Tear through the screen
Escape through the back
Actresses will kill for your role
Let the catfights begin

Go

I see it
Chose to ignore
My tarot screams
Roll the dice
Accept my fate
Running forward
Arms open
Embracing this
Lock up the panic
Banish the ugly girl
Expect everything
Deny nothing
Go

Peptalk

Maybe I am
Already generalizing
Not sure
I can handle defeat
Could seriously happen
Prepare to fight
Even though I'm tired
People will talk
Punch holes in my heart
Even though I'm right
Ready to keep walking

Playground

Let them play today
They need to stretch their legs
I promise to stay tomorrow
Just let them run and babble
Let them play today
All I can hear is their giggles
Class is not developed yet
Let's just let them go
Let them play today
Sometimes I'm jealous
They are so carefree
Yet they can be careless
Let them play today
I'm always watching
Guarding your heart
Sewing mine back together

Boss

I'm always on the outside
Looking in
I have to admit
I kinda hate it
Watching
Shaking my head
This isn't right
Not a single part
About to breakout
Smash the glass
Reclaim my crown
Not sure you are ready
Not sure I care
Sitting back isn't an option
I've come too far
Gone to deep
Drowned myself
In all of what could be

Apologies

I'm sorry
I tripped into a puddle
Of yesterday's mistakes
Of yesterday's sorrows
I'm sorry
I tried to set fire
To tomorrow's bridges
To tomorrow's paths
I'm sorry
I didn't completely fix myself
I sloppily glued pieces
With tears were left exposed
With burnholes were carelessly ignored
I'm sorry
I'm what remains
Of a happy foolish girl
Of a wasted twenty years