Purposely lost

Running fast
They'll never find me
Hiding deep like Ed
In the forest of myself
They'll get tired
They'll get hungry
They'll stop looking
We all know
As the day draws to a close
Everyone's out for themselves
No reason to expect different
I can keep myself
I know myself
I know what's left
I know this heart

Cohen saw it coming

Leonard spoke of this
A deep love
Two imperfect people
One path
I ignored him
Thought he was drunk
Such love wasn't real
What fools
Unpossessive love
That actually comes back
Where was this
Why was this
A secret whispered
To only a chosen few
I never heard
I stopped listening completely
Then a voice persisted
Wrote it off as exhaustion
The voice haunted me
It began to make good arguments
Eyes open I froze
I'm not like Leonard
This can't happen
If fully exposed
There's chances of collapse
The voice whispered
Warm breath on my cheek
I sank deep
Until no stroke could help me
I resurfaced
I'm surprised too

Collective

Changed faces
More than six times today
Can't always tell
Till one must get their way
Starting to not see
Spaces between them all
Starting to blend
Now standing quite tall
You saw us as a problem
Or maybe an accident
You just can't handle
When we're confident

It is what it is

Seems like I've wasted so much time
Just waiting
Waiting for boys to grow up
Waiting to be loved correctly
Seems like I've been the only one
Just real
Wanting to move forward
Wanting to love correctly
Seems like I've woken up finally
Just really seeing
Wanting what's mine
Not wanting to apologize for it

Silently waiting

I'm okay
A little weathered
A wiseman said
This can't last forever
I've proved my worth
I've given my all
I shut my eyes
Surrendered to the fall
I stand here smiling
I'm not broken at all
Catching my breath
From the speed of the fall
I see it so clearly
It was here all the time
Just had to accept
That this really is mine

Hologram

You think she doesn't notice
Well I know damn well she sees
How obsessed you are with yourself
Clinging to your mental disease
In years she will remember
She will know I was there
You were given opportunities
Experiences you refused to share
Don't cry to me later
When she doesn't call
Don't get all weepy
She's already brushed herself off from the fall
Abandonment is a choice
Yeah your body was physically here
You didn't fight the closet monsters
Or wipe away her millions of tears

PEACE

I'd rather put my head in a woodchipper
Then ever stay with you
I hate who you've become
And what you put me through
Walking forward feels so good
As I quicken up my pace
I refuse to speak to you anymore
You're way too satisfied lying to my face

It could go either way

My toes curl over the edge
I've been staring down too long
It's time
Maybe there's a party down there
Maybe there's friends cheering
Maybe there's cake and balloons
Maybe there's nothing

I hold my breath
Shifting my weight forward,
I close my eyes
It's time
Maybe there's a giant field of sunflowers
Maybe there's birds singing sweetly
Maybe there's good wine and a picnic
Maybe there's nothing

Long walk home

Walking fast now
I can finally see
What is going
To become of me
I've thought too long
I've offered to you
At the end
Please see it through
I've walked alone
Many times before
I enjoy your company
More than before
Hate to admit it
Hate sounding like a girl
It is never my intention
To destroy your world