Black and White

Pictures of old school pinups and Batman
are visuals of the day.
Entranced by the ones of roads
that stretch to the unknown.
The girl this one looks concerned,
wondering if that is fake or real.
So hard to tell.
She makes me hear Mazzy Star
and hate myself a little.
Analyzing your picture is so much easier.
I need more stills in my life.
Take it in and throw it away.
Borrowed time if you will.

Sugar

Your mouth tastes sweet.
Don't get to comfortable here.
I'm merely a vacation home,
a pleasant stop....
a breath away from chaos
Can't become a real girl,
one complete.....
crystal clear vision of what you need.
Visit and remember me fondly,
for the longer you stay
the worse I become.
Candy coated moments
are better in small doses.

Creeper

Followin you once more,
you always go the same way.
So oblivious as you check your phone
nearly walkin into people coming you way.
You don't see me
and that's fine.
You never do.
I brought my cuffs this time.
You're gonna notice me today.

my orders

in order to care
i'd haveta be mad
in order to run
i'd haveta to bad
in order to be
what you think i'm not
in order to see
out through this slot
in order to know
i need to see
in order to breathe
i need to be

full circle

They say it all comes back

and you find your way.

I'm told the path gets clearer

if I can pull myself through today.

When waiting for an answer,

keep trying harder to climb

Try to see the good side

while you clinging to your dimes.

I know the sky is open

if I get the guts to ask.

Hard to find direction

as the world just breezes past.

My circle is soon closing

Gotta do this right

My circle is soon closing

based on what I think tonight.

old friend

Familiar face
How many years has it been?
So much we have seen together

Lately

I see someone different
when I watch you now.
Maybe you were always this person.
Maybe I was blind to the good
and only saw the frustration.
My new eyes have made me
fall more deeply in love.
I'm loving the safe peace that we have
in this bubble we have built.
Compromise was not my thing
but I can learn.
Loving you fully
has become my new occupation.

Stained

Settling down
I remember my way.
I want to nest.
I want to be here.
Racing mind
always leads the chase.
Chase me.
Will you?
Am I worth it?
After all the mistakes?
After all the hateful remarks?
Can I renew what we have?
Or is your view of me stained?
I'm not that girl.
I wonder if I ever was.

basement cell

The basement has kept me safe.
Cold and quiet,
it has it's charm.
I acted as if you locked the door
but I honestly never checked.
A crack of light introduced itself,
catching my interest for a second.
It wooed me,
inviting me into it's arms.
I crawled out of the darkness
to see you standing there
smiling with arms open,
warm and delicious.
I rubbed my eyes
and we walked into the ocean.

Voyage

Lately been wanting
just to explore.
Been seeing I'm meant for
oh so much more!
Held myself back
for way too long.
So afraid to mess up,
too afraid to be wrong.
What's the worst that can happen?
I get back up?
No more will I wonder,
I'll make my own luck!
You taught me these lessons,
no one else could.
You found the bravery
that alone I never could.

Shadow Station

Thirty years waiting at bus stations,
spent anticipating that you would stop me and hold me back.
You never showed,
yet still I waited.
Why?
I'm getting on this bus now.
We are pulling away.